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Been awhile since I posted anything, so I thought it was time. Here's the quick and dirty to get you up to date:

-House is great. Living room is completely done, save for hanging some pictures that we can't decide where to put them. Dining room is still empty (actually, this is a new development, as it had boxes in it that needed to be unpacked). Bedroom is still unpainted. Kitchen is still half painted. But we have everything out of the trailer...and most of it is in the garage, though...but it's not so much we can't get the cars in there, so it's all good.

-Went to Disney again for our anniversary. Ate our way though the hotels and skipped the parks this time. Food was great. Highly recommend Jiko at the Animal Kingdom Lodge. I'd pass on Yachtsman, though. Food was good, but the atmosphere sucked. We are going back in September next.

-Weather has been nice, so we have been doing lots of scootering. There was one Sunday between errands and joy-riding, I put 100 miles on the bike. Hoping for some nice weather this weekend too (I think rain is in the forecast) so we can do a longer day trip on Sunday. I want to start building up and maybe take the bikes in Sept. But we have to work up to that long of a trip! And buy raingear.

-Still haven't sold the damn trailer. Thought we had it gone, and the girl had a warrant out on her. *eye roll* I'm so close to saying "Fuck it" and just turning it over. I'm tired of paying lot rent for something we aren't using at all. It's a drain.

-Still couponing. I actually set up a second blog about it. Haven't updated that, either, though. I suck.

-Work is ok, but has been HUGELY busy prepping for our software change coming up on 7/1. Lots of data conversion to make sure we are only bringing the good stuff over...plus we had about 50 stimulus grants come through our office at least 1 has been awarded that I know of...WOOHOO!).

Ok...so, now for the general train of thought stuff:

I'm fat again. No, really. I am. And I think I'm tired of it again, too. Well, I *know* I'm tired of my clothes not fitting. But I just don't know how to get back into "diet mindset". Last time, I had my aunt that I lived with...and she was willing to do ANYTHING to help me (I think we ate frozen Lean Cuisines about 3-4 nights a week, and when we DID cook, she let me pick stuff, because she was ok with losing a few pounds as well). But now, I can't make DH do that. 1) I know he wouldn't. 2) It obviously didn't lead to long term success. If it did, I wouldn't be worried about it now.

So, what can I do? We have at least started eating at home more often than we were. For awhile we were doing REALLY well about it. And I still bring my lunches...usually either leftovers or frozen meals (not always low fat ones, but most of the time). I know my coffee is adding calories and fat...but I'm not willing to cut that out. Sorry, caffeine is more important. I have started doing iced coffees at home on a semi-regular basis, though...and those aren't bad. 1 cup of milk and some SF flavored syrup. If only I could get DH to go for Skim milk instead of 2%. I might have to compromise at 1% (though, the 2% already was a compromise)...or just start buying 2 gallons. But I don't know that I will drink THAT much before it goes bad.

Anyway...I debate going back to WW. But there are a few downsides: 1) To do points, I'd have to pay again, and I really don't want to. 2) I came across an old printed out Core list, which I guess I could use, but I know they have changed that as well, so for best results, I'd have to pay to get that updated, too. 3) I'm not sure I'm ready to replace my coupon obsession with a points/food obsession. Or even add another obsession to the mix. I drove DH nuts last time, because I have to count every little thing, and it's time consuming, and obnoxious if you aren't a participant. And it becomes life-encompassing. It would be all I would think about. I know this. I've been down that road. And yes, WW does work, if you work it. That isn't an issue. Though, at present, I'm in a "Results, NOW" kinda mood...which isn't a good place to start. I do realize this.

So, then there is the original focus of this blog...IE. Downsides: 1) Must learn self-control. 2) Must remember I DO NOT HAVE TO CLEAR MY PLATE. Why is this all caps, you ask? DH has a tendency when he cooks, to plate everything and serve it. I guess it's habit from when he was a chef. And he doesn't measure out "portion sizes". He splits what he makes in half most of the time...and it's way more than I SHOULD be eating. But I was raised in a "clean plate" house, which is very hard to get past, and I'm usually very hungry...or at least think I am...so I eat everything he dishes out. And I should also mention, while he has gotten better, he is still anti-LF/NF on almost everything. There are some things he will do now that he wouldn't before...so there is progress. Anyway...I've gotten off track. This is about doing IE. There really aren't more downsides, except I might gain a little more before I start to lose. There are MANY advantages to it...like when we go back to Disney, I won't have to "blow it" for the weekend to enjoy myself. And I have I mentioned there is 1 IE victory without even really trying: since couponing, I have had ice cream in the house for well over a MONTH...the SAME CARTON of ice cream...and I really only have some occasionally.

Ok. So, what does this mean? I think I need to find my IE book. Or suck it up and pay for WW again. All this debating and I haven't decided anything. But SOMETHING needs to change. I do know my first goal: to have my work pants allow me to breathe comfortably. I guess this is about 10 pounds. I hope that's all it is, or I'm in more denial than I thought.